The last few mornings, I’ve woken up in the morning with the strangest feeling. It takes me a few seconds to figure out what it is I’m feeling in my groggy, half-asleep state. Once I realize that what I’m feeling is hapiness I spend another couple of moments trying to figure our why. Is it Christmas? Do I have the day off? Oh I know! I’m happy because of…well…everything.
I’m happy because I’m building a life for myself that I love and I get to do it without compromises. I’m happy because I get to live on the most magical 11 acres in the world, with a home and a farm that couldn’t meet my needs better if they had been custom built just for me. I am happy to have Kenny and Diane, the couple that own my house, who are so kind and caring and invested in what we’re doing here that I refuse to call them landlords. They are the friends who own my house.
I’m happy that my flock is thriving in our new home and that my dogs are so happy and healthy. The peace I get when I know that all the animals in my care are well and fed and content is immeasurable.
I’m happy because I have great friends who know all the bad stuff about me and still love me anyway. I’m happy because I have a family that loves me enough to make sacrifices that any competent financial planner would have strongly advised against. I’m happy because I have someone in my life who makes my heart leap up and gives me butterflies in my stomach every single day.
I’m happy because I have learned over the past year what I am capable of, that I have reserves of strength that I didn’t know I possessed, and because even if the worst happens, I know I’ll be okay.
Now, by nature, I am a skeptic. And I am more than a little suspicious of all this happiness. I won’t lie to you- I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop at any moment. But whatever happens tomorrow or next month or next year, I will always look back on this adventure as the greatest time in my life and I will know that I had an amazing group of friends, family, shareholders and readers who made it all possible. I quite literally couldn’t do this without you.
I am so grateful to all of you for giving me a chance to live this life. I don’t say it often enough. Thank you. For the very bottom of my heart.
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So glad you’re happy! It couldn’t happen to a better person.
It’s a beautiful thing. Watching you, your triumphs, oh and sharing your farm life even in the smallest of ways.
You are truly a special person who deserves all the happiness coming your way. After all, you give and share so much of that happiness with us.
I am happy you, Erin and the farm entered my life when it did– especially since you had the great good sense (ha!) to move closer to me, um, to a better climate and full fledged farm with barn and fab house. So the Internet is wonky…you’ll get high speed cable there eventually.
We love you, Susie!
I just about spewed tears all over reading this. Thank you for sharing – this kind of happiness is just infectious
Completely happy for you! How marvelous! Enjoy every drop!
It wasn’t that long ago that things were less-than-rosey. Ebb and flow… enjoy the bliss while it lasts. Like you say, even if bumps return in the road, we know we can handle it.
The bad times really deepen our capacity, and help us appreciate the good times all the more! L’Chaim!
Yippee!!! I love happiness. It’s so wonderful that you have found it. Enjoy. It doesn’t have to be fleeting. I’ve tried to learn to find it every day…it makes for a beautiful day even if it has bumps. Thanks for sharing your joy.
Enjoy it to the fullest… you deserve it!
Thank you, Susan. You have a lot of people pulling for you and you are making this work yourself.I still recommend the book, “The Secret” (if only I could remember it all through out the day). I think it is great that you share the happy thing as well as the harder things.
love,
Mom
So, I’m feeling a little left out – I think we need a Lucy update! She must have grown heaps and be HUGE! Has she stopped chasing the sheep? Does she love her Sabine? Does Cini put up with her? Give us the low-down!
What a beautiful post. We all need to think about the positive in our lives and a reminder helps, too.
It’s a pleasure to read your words and enjoy your life with you.
Great idea! I’ll post about Lulu today.
Don’t forget Victoria!! And Linda, and, and, and… PICTURES!!! WE (okay I) love PICTURES!!!!
I am happy that you are so happy. You deserve all the happiness in the world. So glad you shared this with us. We all love you the good, the bad, and the happy.
You are an inspiration to a lot of us and it’s heartwarming to know that type of happiness. You deserve it!
Maybe it’s in the air? I am feeling bliss today myself. Maybe we have fallen into some alternate reality that is just glorious! Or maybe when you do what your heart TRULY calls you to do, there will be happiness.
“How often I found where I should be going by starting out for someplace else.”
relax and stay happy. Grab a cuppa tea and sit back on the deck and relax, taking it all in, breath deep.
Sounds like The Bright Side of Farming.
Thank you for sharing it with us.
Oh Susie, i’m so happy for you that I just cried tears of joy all over my work keyboard reading this post.
And the skullcrusher mountain song suddenly popped into my head… in a happy way.
Thank you for sharing with complete strangers the ups and downs (though I’m sure not all) of your farm and flock. This community has enriched my life to an extent that I have to hide from my real life friends, lest they think I’m crazy.
Ahhhhhhhhhh Susie-
From one skeptic to another I’d like to share just a tad. Although my life is COMPLETELY different, I also had a time in my life where I was totally content and was waiting for that other shoe to drop. 5+ years later, and I’m still waiting. Enjoy the day. Savor each moment. Live. Don’t hold your breath. Just be thankful. Yes, you’ll have some tough days and some great days, but the shoe doesn’t necessarily need to drop. And eventually that shoe hanging over your head will just go away.
Thanks for sharing your life. You are an inspiration!
I am so happy for you. It is contagious. The highlight of my day is reading your blog and seeing pictures of “my” four legged friends. May your happiness never end.
i’m happy you’re happy
and i’m working on mapping out my course of action to
bear the fruits of my dreams too
more about that as things roll out
for now though
your thoughts and prayers for it all coming together
is most appreciated!
lotsa love beaming…
rona